[time : 6.53pm]
[mood : concussed & almost dead ]
[accompaniment : mug of home brewed apple flavoured beer]
spending 10 hours in sch imbeds nasty and weird thoughts in your brain. all that cynicism and anger is just about to implode in my head. okaye. i cant help but to think that i am the defect in the situation,whether it's work ,sch, or play. Nothing i feel, do or think is right ,especially when it seems that im the source. Then,sometimes, i am such a runaway with my words, that i too cant tell if they were spoken in a moment of pique or that i really meant them(though they were definately the most accurate reflection of that temporal emotion) . it really explains why sometimes i will rather keep a arm's length away from everyone else and anyone at all.. i just cant help but to feel as if my life is constantly under the microscope, in the scutiny of their tinted eyes.
Then again, sometimes i wish i could be invisible, standing outside and looking in.
okaye . so no one likes sch. i think i screwed up a test today. and i am contemplating if i should apply for my overseas internship and exchange programme next week.There are just so many variables, so many considerations that are holding me back. But let's keep our fingers crossed this time round, and maybe by next may, i would be in utah , seattle or even canada. we will see, we will see. (:
it's scary to know how time flew by and that i will be graduating in 18 mths time.
oh but anyway, thanks to bryan and greg , i am all psyched up about photography again especially in black and white film photography. and this time round, i am going to save up for DSLR and a SLR.
okaye. here are the works by Rodney Smith and Ansel Adams. im like WAAAAAH.
[mood : concussed & almost dead ]
[accompaniment : mug of home brewed apple flavoured beer]
spending 10 hours in sch imbeds nasty and weird thoughts in your brain. all that cynicism and anger is just about to implode in my head. okaye. i cant help but to think that i am the defect in the situation,whether it's work ,sch, or play. Nothing i feel, do or think is right ,especially when it seems that im the source. Then,sometimes, i am such a runaway with my words, that i too cant tell if they were spoken in a moment of pique or that i really meant them(though they were definately the most accurate reflection of that temporal emotion) . it really explains why sometimes i will rather keep a arm's length away from everyone else and anyone at all.. i just cant help but to feel as if my life is constantly under the microscope, in the scutiny of their tinted eyes.
Then again, sometimes i wish i could be invisible, standing outside and looking in.
okaye . so no one likes sch. i think i screwed up a test today. and i am contemplating if i should apply for my overseas internship and exchange programme next week.There are just so many variables, so many considerations that are holding me back. But let's keep our fingers crossed this time round, and maybe by next may, i would be in utah , seattle or even canada. we will see, we will see. (:
it's scary to know how time flew by and that i will be graduating in 18 mths time.
oh but anyway, thanks to bryan and greg , i am all psyched up about photography again especially in black and white film photography. and this time round, i am going to save up for DSLR and a SLR.
okaye. here are the works by Rodney Smith and Ansel Adams. im like WAAAAAH.
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