seriously.
i had it enough.
seriously i have no idea what you want and i dont think you know what i want either.
but one thing's for sure, getting back together NOW was never really an option for you and i .
i know that's what you wanted , but that's one thing that you didnt know that was on my mind too.
i only wanted us to be in a social relationship ( which i cant even term it as 'friends'now especially when neither of us is capable of giving each other the most basal respect , and to communiciate in the most genial manner.) where we can still be amiable in this transition from being a couple before to friends . i only wanted us to deal with this maturely. i wanted us to know what went wrong before and why. that's it.
i just wanted us to start on a clean slate as friends.
i cared for you. i cared hell darnalot for you.(maybe even till this very moment.)
but it was only because YOU were just someone that was special to me. Someone that i learnt to trust and whom i would always be thankful to for caring the way that you did.
we both cant deny of how our feelings dwindled and changed as time went by,especially during these 2 weeks.i will have you know honestly, i cared for you and i held on to the conviction that i cant turn my back on you for reasons you already know why, but it is definately not on grounds of me wanting to be your girlfriend again.
we both saw how ugly we could be in this,how we lost ourselves while caring for each other ,how we failed each other 's expectations and eventually,the realisations of who we (really?) were under duress. But i believe we were both victims of circumstances. i have no wish to think that 'us' was a mistake to begin with and we both know how happy we were before and could have been .
i am sorry for everything.
if it's for the better that we deny each other's existance and obliterate what we had and were before, i will respect your decision for i have no wish to be one of the 'ghosts' of your past. i will cleanly extricate ' you' ,'us' and this interim of my life will cease to exist no more.
bye.
i had it enough.
seriously i have no idea what you want and i dont think you know what i want either.
but one thing's for sure, getting back together NOW was never really an option for you and i .
i know that's what you wanted , but that's one thing that you didnt know that was on my mind too.
i only wanted us to be in a social relationship ( which i cant even term it as 'friends'now especially when neither of us is capable of giving each other the most basal respect , and to communiciate in the most genial manner.) where we can still be amiable in this transition from being a couple before to friends . i only wanted us to deal with this maturely. i wanted us to know what went wrong before and why. that's it.
i just wanted us to start on a clean slate as friends.
i cared for you. i cared hell darnalot for you.(maybe even till this very moment.)
but it was only because YOU were just someone that was special to me. Someone that i learnt to trust and whom i would always be thankful to for caring the way that you did.
we both cant deny of how our feelings dwindled and changed as time went by,especially during these 2 weeks.i will have you know honestly, i cared for you and i held on to the conviction that i cant turn my back on you for reasons you already know why, but it is definately not on grounds of me wanting to be your girlfriend again.
we both saw how ugly we could be in this,how we lost ourselves while caring for each other ,how we failed each other 's expectations and eventually,the realisations of who we (really?) were under duress. But i believe we were both victims of circumstances. i have no wish to think that 'us' was a mistake to begin with and we both know how happy we were before and could have been .
i am sorry for everything.
if it's for the better that we deny each other's existance and obliterate what we had and were before, i will respect your decision for i have no wish to be one of the 'ghosts' of your past. i will cleanly extricate ' you' ,'us' and this interim of my life will cease to exist no more.
bye.
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