this gotta be the longest hiatus i had since i started blogging.
These two weeks were hellish for me, and everything that happened exceeded my threshold. it didnt make things better to know myboy's in taiwan fleeing away from tanks and losing weight so fast that it would probably put kate moss to shame.

now that theboy's back, i have been seeking refuge at our den for a week . it's only 4 hours that i reached home and i am missing our den already.bah.oh well, it's just amazing how that one whole week with each other seem to pass that quickly. speaking of which, i have been shuttling between his place and mine so often, that i am losing track of the clothes and things that are either at his place or mine. scattered brained shite im.


so while he's busy assuming his role of a omnipotent GOD to his villagers in BLACK and WHITE, i will be busy either stuffing my face in front of his telly, sleeping , reading his mommy's old classics or simply looking after that sickboy ( who can still snack on hersheys chocostuffed marshies, chocolates,japanese fancygems, japanese biscuits.) for that, i put on 2 kg to be 43kg. craps.

it's coming close to 6 months now but it's still waking up in the morning to have him pull me closer while his eyes are closed like those of a child, that i know is love.


Speechless awe,turning wonder;
i dance in the vanishing dark
Like a fool
While all around me, his sensibility asleep.

For you
eyes will never close
mind will never stop conjuring.
As morning rears up,
And our brief business resumes,
i will shoulder the wheel
And strain toward the promise of his peace.
But i will never
Be more grateful than now..

to have his kiss as my morning wonder.






























i want to be your disciple breeder. (;

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and *yay. busy days ahead. catching up with sch work.
then it's steamboat and fishing at marinabay with gun,karthi and gang.
then clubbing with theboy and his mates.
then maybe a new phone for myboy and i.
perhaps, a trip to taipei too. hurhurhur.
please also say 'saswasdee-kaaa.'


updated.

just read the international forum page on the strait times, and they were discussing how the whole sept 11 event could just well be a crafted masquerade staged to insiduously achieve the us government's political agenda for the middle east. then again, who can distinguish the fine line between the oppressed, the oppressor and terrorisim in the name of religon. just for whom and why these leaders are apparently fighting for. just who are the victims.



San Franciso 23.12.05